Coming Out…

*sigh*

I know… Just those two words can make me alternately very mad or reduced to a useless teary mess. It’s one of those things where you don’t really know why, but… you have to… Even if you’re against the very notion, even if you think it’s pointless, you still kind of have to do it.

Now don’t get me wrong, I don’t think everyone should come out and, being from a rather intolerant family/village, I waited until I was financially independent and out of there before I started to come out. Only you will know if coming out will make your life better or worse. Don’t necessarily believe popstars or websites.

But if you do decide to, I am not going to lie to you. Coming out is hard.

It’s sometimes the hardest thing you will do in your life. When you live in the closet it’s like trying to swim against the tide. No matter how much you try to stay there, you keep getting pushed out. There is always a comment, an event which makes you think “I can’t continue like this”. And just doing it takes immense courage. It’s gambling your life sometimes… And other times, it just feels that way and it takes you agonizing months and years to finally do it and you are met with a shrug and a “yeah, I always knew”. The best and the worst you can hear sometimes.

Yeah, we’ve all been there – more or less. It sucks. No other words for it. But you have this constant feeling that you WILL have to do it in order to live your life. And sometimes, you need that new beginning to finally become on the outside who you are on the inside.

The school year is starting soon and some of you may be considering doing the big move. *gasp* Chillax, my friend. It’s scary. Massively scary. But you’re not alone. I actually think that there hasn’t been a time where you’ve been less alone than you are right now. Movie stars and athletes are coming out, France and Scotland (woohoo!) are planning to join the VIC (Very Important Country) club of gay marriage.

Now, there isn’t one right way to do it (or a wrong way), and quite frankly, there isn’t any obligation either, but should you need any inspiration, I found this little gem on Tumblr called When I Came Out. I’m sure there are gazillions of websites where you can find coming out stories. Some are sad, some are anti-climactic and others are straight out of a TV series, but it’s sometimes good to see that you aren’t alone in this. And you are, most definitely, not alone.

Take a look at the stories. Maybe share yours. And don’t forget: hang in there, one day it won’t even matter anymore.

Caro x

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